11 months already.
Bientôt un an. Ce jour approche, et je me sens comme toutes les fois où j’ai vécu ces premières fois, toutes ces fois où j’étais seule, toutes ces fois où tu n’étais plus là. Toutes ces fois où j’ai perdu quelqu’un, vécu un deuil; man I wonder where you are. Now my uncle is in hospital and doctors say hes not gonna make it until Christmas. And then I think of you. And then, selfish me thinks about what I lost over the year. Tu sais que, depuis, je n’ai pas eu beaucoup d’occasions de pratiquer mon anglais! Et j’ai laissé tombé Yulblog. Its not the same anymore.
I met someone this year! :) Remember what you said? « You have so much to offer to a boyfriend ». Tes mots résonnent encore dans ma tête. Mais ça foiré. Ça fait mal perdre quelqu’un, et ça guérit tout aussi mal. Au fond, on s’en remet jamais vraiment. Yen a qui disent que j’ai tendance à détruire tout, même inconsciemment, en ce qui concerne mes relations. Faudrait être fou pour croire ça. « Thats crazy shit ». Je sourie.
God. I wish I’ll find a friend like you again, in this life.
septembre 7th, 2011 at 9:40
I’m very sorry for your loss. I know that’s easy for a stranger to say, but its true none the less, and I‘m sorry to hear about your uncle too.
I clicked through and read Alstons blog from time to time. I only commented once or twice, but it was interesting to read.
I had to go to a funeral a while back for a woman I worked with years ago and her grandson read out a poem by Joyce Grenfell during the service, the last lines of which were;
‘Cry if you must, parting is hell, But life goes on, so sing as well’
I know that you must have shed many tears since he passed away, but I hope you’ve been able to ‘sing’ too, and as the anniversary passes and the years progress, I hope you’ll find it easier to smile when you think of him.
As for another friend like Alston – well, everyone is unique so there’ll never be anyone exactly like him, but I’ll bet you have plenty of friends who care about you just as much as he did or perhaps more so. Friends who will listen, give advice, or just be there for you if you need them. Different friends but still great friends. Take care and try to ‘sing’.